I'm punching, kicking, screaming, crying, laughing, dying
in the inside.
19 October, 2009
QuitZ.
Is this quality even worthy to be proud of?
Not saying that i'm proud that i've built my walls up so high that even the guy most worthy of my heart is unable to break them down.
What if we've all been fooled into thinking that each experience is a "learning experience" when really all we've learned is to not give away anything that would tear ourselves into pieces that we alone can't fix. When all we've really learned is to keep ourselves safe from harm. To stay on the sidewalk. To keep your heart, 3 stacks because these guys are smart, 3 stacks...and we've just gotta play our part, 3 stacks.
I'm dying for someone to show me the side of myself that isn't afraid to let everything go.
Bringing the underdog back to the front of the race, nawmsayin?
The one who'd make me careless, fearless, stronger, better, unashamed, and foolish.
The person who could do that for me
will be the winner.
If you're out there, will you dance with me?
Not saying that i'm proud that i've built my walls up so high that even the guy most worthy of my heart is unable to break them down.
What if we've all been fooled into thinking that each experience is a "learning experience" when really all we've learned is to not give away anything that would tear ourselves into pieces that we alone can't fix. When all we've really learned is to keep ourselves safe from harm. To stay on the sidewalk. To keep your heart, 3 stacks because these guys are smart, 3 stacks...and we've just gotta play our part, 3 stacks.
I'm dying for someone to show me the side of myself that isn't afraid to let everything go.
Bringing the underdog back to the front of the race, nawmsayin?
The one who'd make me careless, fearless, stronger, better, unashamed, and foolish.
The person who could do that for me
will be the winner.
If you're out there, will you dance with me?
04 October, 2009
East.
It's funny who you run into throughout your days. One day, God decides that you need to appreciate what you have @ home and makes you meet a guy like Joey: so rooted in his hometown - never wanting to leave. Preferring the comfort of knowing everyone. Preferring the adventure @ home that's still waiting for him. And one day God decides that you need a different perspective of something. On this day, he'd take you to someone who, like myself, craves adventure. Somebody free and is willing to share their experiences with you - hoping you'd make the (right) decision in leaving your home and discovering new places, new faces, and most importantly, yourself.
I've been wasting my days sleeping away. Basking in my self-pity, knowing after the bullshit @ school is over, i'd still end up in the same place i am now. So unmotivated. So boring! So NOT me.
And after church today, i ask myself: when did you ever lose the sight of the horizon?
It's cliche, but it's true: you never know where life may take you.
I am one who finds comfort in a "game plan." - formulated after days of countless contemplating in chapels, in my bedroom, in cars. Planned out my every move during my sleepless nights. No room for distractions, dawg. No room for vacations, i think. NO fooling around in college, nick.
But today, i bask in my new found glory and tell myself: Nick, Maybe it's about the journey and not the finish line.
I've been wasting my days sleeping away. Basking in my self-pity, knowing after the bullshit @ school is over, i'd still end up in the same place i am now. So unmotivated. So boring! So NOT me.
And after church today, i ask myself: when did you ever lose the sight of the horizon?
It's cliche, but it's true: you never know where life may take you.
I am one who finds comfort in a "game plan." - formulated after days of countless contemplating in chapels, in my bedroom, in cars. Planned out my every move during my sleepless nights. No room for distractions, dawg. No room for vacations, i think. NO fooling around in college, nick.
But today, i bask in my new found glory and tell myself: Nick, Maybe it's about the journey and not the finish line.
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